i wonder

sometimes i wonder if there's somebody out there takes so much in life just like me.

though i know exactly that being optimistic is one and the only way to face this life of me, yet, just like everyone else, the bright side of life now and then is just like shit.

only thirty something so i can't haul tiredness in the office.
only thirty something so i have to take all this shit.
only and will always be the youngest one in the office so my saying will never be powerful as you all. however, what the shit have you all done?

well, this is the fourth year of my teaching, and i know i am getting used to all your ugly faces, yet down in my heart, i do understand that there is no excuse for each of you to escape from your own business.

so this is the last year for me to deal with all this shit, and i have been doing all of these for my students. they are the only support as always, and i know clearly that after the graduation you and you and you all will have nothing to do with me.

you just live with your own selfishness, and fakeness will always blind you all, and you all have to take this.

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all of the above is concluding that once again i have to live with the support of medicine, yet that's fine, i will keep telling myself that i had been through the drama competition, and the following mess would only do only little to me.

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deep breath, speak it out, everything is under control.
less rest, try to sleep well and earlier, exercise, vitamins, medicine.

only 2.5 months for the messy semester,
and next semester after the rest of course you will be fine.